2 and 1 - In the thick of it...

Less than 24 hours to go.

Just finished hauling 10 bags of stuff to the curb in front of my apartment. Trying to leave as blank a canvas for the next occupant. I hope she can tell that this flat has been filled with joy.

And a strange, overarching peace abides... at least, that's what I keep telling myself.

Doing some last minute things tomorrow: closing up bank accounts, picking up some last minute shopping.

Have friends who will see me off, both from my apartment and at the bus terminal. This means the world to me. Hadn't realized just how much until this moment actually came. Funny the things that matter in the end.

Signing off, for the month and for the project.

100 days complete tomorrow.

And a new chapter begins.

3 - "Struggle"

In class yesterday we were discussing healthy foods and the exercise involved planning a healthy menu, with a main dish, sides, and dessert. One girl raised her hand and asked:

"Teacher what is kind of potatoes... struggle potatoes?"

Me: "Do you mean 'mashed' potatoes."

"Ahhh! Yes, yes." She said. " 'Mashed' potatoes."

Oh, thou potato, you valiant and worthy opponent.

4 - Slipping away...

It's Monday night (11:39PM korea time). I am about to pull an all-nighter to get my stuff packed. It never feels like enough, but somehow, I'm trusting that it will be enough. Harder than it looks, simpler than it sounds.

5 - LAST long walk on a Saturday...

... because this was my last Saturday here.

A restaurant by my house.

The Sun through the clouds.

The river (moving water).

... and me!

6 - Phonetic...

The homework assignment involved listening to sentences online and writing them down.

I kept seeing things like:

"altisstic"

"alrustak"

"alltrustik"

"alltrue-stick"

The word was "altruistic"

Gotta love those phonetic spellers.

7- All worthwhile...

Today was one of those days when it all seems worthwhile, when despite my weaknesses and shortcomings, the greater purpose of God prevails.

Had coffee with an awesome young man who is interested in serving our church in leadership and seems to be a direct answer to our prayer for God to raise up men of action and service. It's absolutely awe-inspiring and incredibly gratifying to see the church inhabited by such people.

In lighter news, I saw Resident Evil: Afterlife in IMAX 3D. Am glad that I got a chance to see another movie in Korea because I'm just convinced that movies look better out here. The seats are more lush and supportive, the screens more attractive than anything I've yet to experience in the States. One can also select one's seat when the ticket is purchased so there's no need to come early to claim a good spot. The movie was quite well-done for a shoot 'em up zombie flick and I left strangely inspired to live my daily life better.

If that isn't the summation of a successful day, then I don't know what is.

Keep the faith and fight the good fight!

8 - Fleeting...

"Nothing in the world is permanent, and we’re foolish when we ask anything to last, but surely we’re still more foolish not to take delight in it while we have it."

W. Somerset Maugham, The Razor’s Edge

(shamelessly stolen from wordpainting.tumblr.com)

9 - Single Digits...

I'm in the single digits and it still hasn't sunk in yet...

Six parts excited, one part nervous.

Today I purposely made my room messy to remind myself that I still have work to do.

10 - Such a shame...

"Who is more to be pitied, a writer bound and gagged by policemen or one living in perfect freedom who has nothing more to say?"

Kurt Vonnegut

11 - Home Stretch

Second to the last Sunday at church. One of our deacons had his last Sunday today. At first, I thought that it was silly that the leaving people were crying when they went up to speak, but now I think I'm beginning to understand. It's kind of like death, this leaving. We're completely saying good-bye to one set of friends, acquaintances, places, and routines. But we get a reprieve on the other end-- Family and friends waiting to welcome us home. It's a bit morbid to think this way, but alas, all part of the journey.

12 - Message in a Bottle

Question: "What message would you leave for yourself 2 years and 7 months ago?"

"Everything's gonna be OK."

Really. That's it. And actually, that message holds true for me at almost any age before now. I live by the creed that "...absolutely nothing in God's universe happens by mistake."

13 - Contents of My Life...

What was in that box? Why, I thought you'd never ask.

Box #1 -

Chambers, Oswald Complete Works of Oswald Chambers

Gross, Terry All I Did was Ask

E. San Juan, Jr. Beyond Post-Colonial Theory

Soyinka, Wole You Must Set Forth at Dawn

Stanley, Thomas Millionaire Next Door, The

al-Bayati, Abdul Wahab Love, Death, and Exile

Elliot, Elizabeth Let Me be a Woman

Blanchard, Ken One Minute Entrepreneur

Csikszentmihalyi, Mihaly Creativity

Buechner, Fredrich Telling Secrets

Buechner, Fredrich Sacred Journey, The

YBM/SiSa Great American Short Stories

Pausch, Randy Last Lecture, The

Berlitz Korean Dictionary

Zinsser, William On Writing Well

ed. Boxer, Sarah Ultimate Blogs

Revere, Steven Survival Korean

Complete Guide to the TOPIK, The

Korean Grammar in Use

Sogang Korean Level 1A + grammar book

Sogang Korean Level 1B + grammar book

Sogang Korean Level 2A + grammar book

Hall, Jean and Dorial Ashtanga Yoga and Meditation

14 - Murphy

"I always tell my kids if you lay down, people will step over you. But if you keep scrambling, if you keep going, someone will always, always give you a hand. Always. But you gotta keep dancing, you gotta keep your feet moving."

Morgan Freeman

In deference to the "Murphy" from my last post that did, indeed, visit me I should note that I broke a tooth late this evening. The good news is, I'm still in Korea. Worst case scenario: I'll need a root canal, core, and crown. Best case scenario: They can patch it up in one visit. Most assuredly, the cost will be a fraction of what I would pay in the States.

As one Korean co-worker remarked, "That's one of the best things about Korea. When I was in the States, they wanted to charge me $2000 to have my wisdom teeth pulled. For that price, I can buy a round trip ticket, fly to Korea, have the work done, fly home and still have change left over."

16 - ConTENT and things I meant to say back when...

At the risk of inviting hubris (or "Murphy" of Murphy's Law), I would say that I am quite content where I am right now. I don't wish I was staying longer; I don't wish I was leaving sooner. I feel like I have been here the exact amount of time I was meant to be here and that I have done all I was supposed to do. Preparations for leaving aside, I want to take a few seconds for myself and realize that I really am that content.

Today's assignment was a trip to the pension office to claim my pension from the Korean government. It's meant for retirement and hopefully I'll be able to open up an IRA with it once I've been working (and paying taxes) in the States for 2 years.

Meant to say back in August, to any family (Aunt Dianne, Uncle Art, Aunt Rosi, Cousins Eddie or Julie, Uncle Ed, Aunt Merry, Uncle Brandt, Aunt Kathi, Uncle Jerry, Cousins Josh or Jess) I miss our August reunion. It was something I dreaded being dragged to as a kid, but as with so many things, I have come to appreciate it more now that I'm older.

Love you and miss you all!

18 - Getting lazy...

I feel like I'm getting lazy out here. I've felt this way for a long time. I feel like I have little to contribute as I am right now. I'm looking forward to this change and hoping that I can kick myself out of this mood.

Tongue in cheek, I offer:

"You can't teach people to be lazy-- either they have it, or they don't." Dagwood Bumstead.

19 - Common Denominator

I'm always fascinated by the activities that bring people together. Was at a party this evening and it was interesting to note the different interests that actually draw people out of their houses to meet with one another. Yoga, sports, drinking, travel, food, and TV shows seemed to be common denominators.

From my experience, the single most unifying force for me out here has been my church. I've used it as the source of my social network, support system, and entertainment hub. I'm fortunate because this particular church, for all its quirks and oddities, has an intensely diverse cross-section of human experience. There are parents with babies, parents with teenagers, retirees, single military personnel, married military personnel, as well as us 20-something English teachers. This mecca of wisdom and experience comes together on Sunday morning and I would be more likely to call in sick to work than I would be to miss church.

Creating community is a vital activity and one that I don't take lightly. As I'm preparing myself to go through this building process once more with new people in new places, I look at what I have right now and realize the many ways I am truly blessed in this situation right now.

20 - Marking time

Being hit by a few of those "lasts" ... lately.

This is the last time I start a new series (unit) at my school. I just checked my attendance sheets and scoped out the last class that I'll teach on my last day. Get ready, kiddos! I'm just getting started. : )

21 - being enough.

Had lunch with a friend this afternoon.

"I just never feel like I've done enough." I said.

"Join the club." He said.

Whether it be saving, studying, learning, working... It's so hard to strike that balance between contentment with a job well done and the continual drive to do better. I suppose the core comes down to who I measure myself against. I have all these grand hopes and dreams, but in the end I suppose that it's enough for me to know that I'm made some really great friends, paid off some really heinous debt, and got to do some pretty cool work while I was here. Corny, but true.

22 - Passion

Things about which I am passionate:

(in no particular order)

Effective Communication

The written word

Living debt-free

Eternity

Grace

Health

Purses

Music

23 - Deer in the Headlights

Is kind of how I feel right now. Less than four weeks left...